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Met a guy later on in the evening. Not like that. Thought he was gonna jump off the Stormwind bridge just outside the front gates. Wondered if I should join him. He ran off pretty quickly; think I embarassed him with my morose assumptions.

Promised me drinks though next time he is around. Cannot recall his name. E-something. Looked like a simple farmhand from Westfall trying to play soldier when daddy was not looking. We'll see?

Stormwind's cold tonight. Missing Astarin. What am I going to do? Cannot talk to him about this. No-one else to talk to. I wonder what miss Annaliese would say.

No. Cannot go back. Cannot go forward.

So lost.

Wish I had the stones to just gut myself and get it over with.

I feel disgusting.